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这两天在看那本（传说中）的学术评论Captain America and the Struggle of the Superhero。

主编Robert G. Weiner的那篇Sixty-Five Years of Guilt Over the Death of Bucky果然……很高能……

不过不得不说看得很伤感，虽然本来也是更喜欢有血有肉的队长。感慨一下，编剧们果然专注虐队长70年。

马克几段令人印象深的，做记录，只搬运。

严肃评论还是不打奇怪的tag了（

Certainly Captain America had seen his fair share of people dying during and after the war. But for him, there was no civilian life to return to. He tried, but he could never lead a "normal" life as Steve Rogers. He was Captain America, and there was no other life for him. However, this does not mean that he was void of emotion or didn't experience the feelings that normal people did. In fact, as the forthcoming examples show, his feelings of depression and survivor's guilt were probably deeper than those of a normal person.

Captain America threw himself into his missions, but as a civilian he was a nowhere man. No matter how he tried to live as Steve Rogers, he never succeeded. His fears, melancholy, and depression ran deep in his psyche (Whybrow, XV, 1–3).

（个人非常喜欢这段对队长的评论，看到的时候特别感动。能容纳很多痛苦、不断地纠结、又有力而不自知的凡人。）

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One modern interpretation has Captain America experiencing a dreamscape just before he wakes up and joins the Avengers. In the dreamscape, he lives out his life, through old age and death, with Bucky at his side (Waid Captain America: Red White and Blue).

（……马这一段是我想找这本漫画看看。）

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For a brief moment, it seemed like Captain America had resigned himself to Bucky's death, saying, "gone forever and that is a fact I'll just have to learn to live with" (Thomas Avengers 56 20). But later episodes show that Captain America never did learn to live with Bucky's demise.

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Captain America had always been somewhat of a loner, and it was difficult for anyone, other than Bucky, to get close to him. The trauma of Bucky's death caused him to keep others at arm's length even more. His various romances had been nothing but "roller coasters," until he started to fall in love with espionage agent Sharon Carter. But, even then, he refused to let their relationship blossom into something more permanent.

（看到这里只想说，原来真是这样……我记得罗杰斯队长喜欢钱德勒、康奈利。自己果然也是这种独来独往的性格。不记得是过时之人还是V5里面的Bucky曾说，除了我，还有谁这样了解你呢。其实回忆这些都是队长在自己补自己的刀。）

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What Captain America failed to realize was that Bucky chose to be Captain America's partner. He knew the risks of being associated with Captain America, and of fighting crime and the Axis powers. And, he chose to jump on the experimental plane to stop it from being used by the Nazis.

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MODOK had Dr. Doom create an android of Bucky, and when MODOK flipped a switch, the "Bucky" android began to attack Captain America, who asked, "Bucky is it because of what happened ... years ago? Do you still blame me for not saving [you] from that doomed plane? You can never blame me as much as I've blamed myself!" At the pivotal moment, even an android of Bucky could not bring himself to kill Captain America. It had been programmed to take Bucky's place too well, leading Captain America to say, "Not even a replica of my long lost partner could bring himself to harm me".

（……我也想找这段漫画，简直没眼看……）

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When Captain America realized that the Winter Soldier might indeed be his long lost beloved Bucky, he was understandably horrified. However, he decided that if the Winter Solider was Bucky Barnes, he was not responsible for becoming the monster that the Russians programmed him to be.